remember me...umm kristina??? oh why & why do you do this to me?? what the fuck??? how am i supposed to react..oh my gosh!!! i hate life...it has no ending just over, over & over again. we went EVERYWHERE and talked about EVERYTHING...you always asked if i thought you were a "bitch!" i said no just that one time but deep inside i wished i could say:

- every since i layed an eye on you, i was curious how you would of reacted to the million questions i first asked you. every star would shine if i would of gotten closer...pure heaven is what it will really be.

we left work to talking about how our days were at work.we exchanged our hate pride with work, and pretended to be happy with each other. Hiding is a fear that we use as a shield without it the truth would stick out. Our hearts could be shattered with echoing words within. but we hear through the other side so it should not matter.

our footsteps pounding against the floor as we walk our womanhood pride through the doors of the hotel...where you hide from your horrible husband who's supposed to love you like your first man who put a ring on you. we walked and finally, you turn the knob and open the door....smiling like you know you have 100's of those same shirts for work. i was smiling like i didn't care and laughed at you...then we both laughed at this slow ass lady who keeps staring at a monitor.

forever i sensed a warm feeling that never existed yet. had a strong feeling how much i loved spending time with you...you make it seem pretty fast at work then i get sad because you leave then i go crazy trying to step in your way to say goodbye for almost the last times.

i thought you liked me...you stared at me/....looked at me even touched me for accidents that were meant to be. i can't believe you never confessed yet...must be pretty hard trying not to say it when i noticed you moaning while being really close to me when making whopper jr's. i could feel it like a lightning electric shocks just went through me...kind of left me shocked with confusion for 5 seconds. i always been wondering if you ever felt the same way.? i can't really tell because i'm as good as hiding it as me. but you left some signs out there for me to comprehend and think deeply about leaving me wondering crazy about like a pshyco.

i've always wondered if you hated me or never wanted to be with me.. ever! i don't think it's a never possibility. i think it's definetly a possibility. you left signs that wouldn't be normally left there. they were left there for a reason. you would of cleaned the signs up if you never truly liked me i just don't see how you don't see i will respond with a "yes" if you just confess or ask.. i don't think it's a possibility just questioning you i'm hooked...and you should know that by now..but maybe that someday would come where you wouldn't give a shit to how much your husband expects out of his woman...and the way your kids will look at you unhappy. your missing the peice that was tossed in the ocean for you to find it in a treasure that would take you to be happy...well guess what i am the ocean..your ocean to swim in and relieve your stress..and anger issues to drown in the sea where it needs to be taken care off by the sand no the bottom of the ocean.

the titanic drowned and i thought i was in there to rescue you drowning in with water that'll wash you away.

i had a dream about you where you took me by my hand and said "hunny i always loved you!" kissed me on the neck and etc.

i knew i would always think about you never take a second break...my 24/7 mind just turned into a donnitalcoholic...it's fucken the shit where your purple pride is just eating me as i feel your true desire from here....i am guessing you are pretty much alone..

you told me and other employees that you never have sex with your husband that much...as i watch you say it you started to trip with the words...my heart just fell as i watched knowing that i know you would of always liked it as much as me.

i'm hoping this is not the end...i've found my perfect beauty with humor. i'm in love with it and hoping it will love me when the time passes to be right.; i would never forget this perfect woman i desire for....forever is in my heart that never hopes out of place. i would love her forever she will be mine soon...as i grow & come back when i'm successful to treat her.

we would walk and talk and love...we would be in our perfect little secret world...where the monkey's come out to the full freedom...eating as many banana's. i would be in my bed with my sweet fun hunny..and be making out with her like she's the world..kissing her in the wet lips she offered. i silently close my eyes and picture it in my head..thinking:

-if i could have one thing before i die, it would be a kiss of my love.....*hmmm* .....god she tastes good!!!!!